'Knowing is not enough'
by Particia Walker Chatman
Quick Facts
Release Date: January 12, 2014
Genre: Fiction (Romance)
Formats to buy: Book (Hard Copy) and ebook (Kindle)
Book Synopsis
"Till death do us part" comes a lot faster than Alex expects. Her husband, Jake, is very much alive, but they are apart as two married people can get.
Jake has cheated on Alex yet again, but this time, public betrayal is more than she can stomach or ignore. Alex can't defend or justify staying in a marriage marred by infidelity and elaborate lies anymore, so she decides finally to deal with the reality of her life; it's a mess.
After seven years of marriage, 40-year-old Alex is a newly single woman who hasn't been without a man since college. Before embarking on a new relationship, she must take time to figure out why she is constantly attracted to men who are emotionally unavailable.
Through the help of friends and family Alex learns painfully at times, that before she can attract a "real man” she must first become a "real woman".
Excerpt:
PROLOGUE
Happily-ever-after ended sooner than I’d expected.
Women are the only people who can find truth in a lie. Especially when it comes to the men in our lives. I conned myself into believing our lies were true. To the outside world we had the perfect marriage, but all houses look good from the curb. Our marriage, not unlike any other, lived amid accusations and disappointments. Then it hits you, somewhere between washing dishes and folding clothes—is this all there is for me?I didn’t know the answer to that. Wish I did. What I did know was happiness would never exist for me in this union.It was time. Neither one of us would get what we needed to stay in this marriage from words alone. I didn’t have the passion or the energy to do anything about us. Not anymore. It was time to let go of the lie and embrace reality. Jake was being written out of my story. Now all there was left to do was tell him.I invited him back to our, soon to my house. I sat down at the kitchen table, reflecting about how we’d argued over the buying that very piece of furniture. Dressed in clothing I’d picked out for his birthday, Jake pulled out a chair and joined me.I examined his eyes in search of the love I knew a century ago. Initially, separating for a while seemed to be a good idea. Looking at him, I’m not so sure anymore. He appeared to be a new person, different, from the man I’d known. We both have lived six months of life apart. Considering all he achieved with other women living in the same house, I can only imagine what or whom he’s gotten into without me. Starting over would mean getting to know this man, accept his lies, and his mistakes. I had absolutely no desire to do that.I said, “Our lives are such a mess. Let’s just get this over with.”“I’m not going to argue with you Alex. I know what it is, but I don’t think divorce is the answer. You need to try to forgive me.”“For what?” I got up and poured myself a cup of coffee. “Why would I do that with someone who doesn’t love me?” I returned to my seat next to him. He frowned. “You misinterpreted what I said. I didn’t mean I don’t love you at all.”“I’m confused. Exactly what does not love you mean? You either love me or you don’t, and you clearly said you didn’t.” I took a sip. “Am I missing something?”Jake made a dismissive gesture with his hand. “I only meant the romantic love I felt for you is gone, not that I don’t love you. Of course I love you.”“Do you see,” I waved my finger, “those kind of statements only make sense to anybody with a penis? I love you enough to live in the same house with you, but not enough to touch you?”“Don’t twist my words Alex. I think marriage counseling could help us find what’s missing.”I quickly lost patience with him. “Okay—again, maybe it’s me, what exactly did we lose? Considering you never stopped dating.” I threw my hands up in exasperation. “I’m so tired of us. You can’t misplace what we never had.”“So you don’t even want to try?”I didn’t meet his eyes. “Jake—you cheated on me days before our wedding. These wounds aren’t healing anymore. I’m carrying them and it’s causing permanent mental damage now. I can’t keep doing this—I won’t.” I paused. “Nobody walks around raindrops Jake . . . not even you.”“Alex, just think about it. We’ve got to much invested in this, but if it’s what you want me to do—I’ll sign the papers to file right now.”I stood up and walked out of the kitchen.“Where are you going?”“To get a pen.”
The Author
For over twenty years, Patricia Walker Chatman has worked in the human service industry. In 2010, Patricia accepted a Faculty Associate position facilitating Financial Management for Human Services and various Business Topics. She holds a Bachelor of Science degree in Human Resources with a specialization in Training and Development. A Master Degree in Public Policy and Administration, and anticipates completing her doctorate in Public Policy Administration, May 2014. Knowing Is Not Enough is Patricia’s first novel.
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My Review:
I did not get the title until I sat down to write this review. It is not enough to know that you are in a loving relationship, because you deserve to actually be in one. It takes courage to change and to start over. I was happy that Alex allowed her heart to open up to new people and that she was willing to start fresh. I was not sure if she would open her heart enough to get her happily ever after, however I did like the end of the book. The author created Alex in such a way that I wanted her to be happy. I also wanted to help her get a divorce. There is a sex scene in this book, that I did not expect. I am giving this book a 3/5. I was given a copy to review, however all opinions are my own.
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ReplyDeleteI appreciate the mention of the sex scene - while that usually doesn't mean I won't read the book, perhaps it does for some people, and you are giving them useful information.
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