Title: Landfall
Author: Joseph Jablonski
Publisher: Bacon Press Books
Pages: 204
Genre: Literary Fiction
Format: Paperback/Kindle
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Publisher: Bacon Press Books
Pages: 204
Genre: Literary Fiction
Format: Paperback/Kindle
After a long career at sea, Jake Thomas thinks he’s finally put his life
in order. He’s got a new wife, a new home, time to write and tend his roses.
But his past and the secrets he’s kept, even from himself, won’t stay buried.
Forty years earlier, a woman was murdered during Jake’s first voyage on
the American freighter, the SS James Wait.
Her children want answers only Jake can give. But resurrecting old memories
takes him spiraling back to the chaos and upheaval of the late 1960s.
In this riveting story-within-a-story, Jake’s peaceful routine in
Portland, Oregon, stands in stark contrast to his days as a merchant seaman in
Subic Bay, when he set off on a journey to discover his dark side. A journey
that hasn’t yet ended.
Like Joseph Conrad, Joseph Jablonski has created a novel set at sea that
is as much a careful observation of human nature and a powerful condemnation of
war as it is a fascinating sea story.
When I see him, almost forty
years later, I realize two things: I know who it is, and I’m not particularly
surprised. His car—an expensive yellow convertible with the top up—parks at the
head of my long drive. It is a hazy September morning when the world, excluding
my brilliant, many-hued roses, lies quiet and subdued in shades of green. He
gets out. At this distance, a figure in the mist, tall and very broad across
the chest, he hesitates a moment to get his bearings, then walks down the new
gravel toward my house, his strides long and awkward, his hair a shock of
white. He wears beige slacks and a denim shirt with a yellow tie. As he
approaches, I’m amazed at how much he resembles Pastor Kenneth—less crude,
perhaps, but still, like his father, uncomfortable in his movements. Seeing
him, I hastily remove my hands from the roses, pricking my right pointer finger
on a large thorn, which draws blood. I lick the blood away, straighten up and
watch him. He had sent a letter months ago that had been forwarded to me.
Though I never answered, I’d been worried he would show up. My heart begins to
pound.
This
was sure to throw off my day. I had been bustling about in my windowed porch,
brewing the Fair Trade coffee Antoinette insists we buy, putting together a
large bouquet of pink romanticas and yellow floribundas, about to sit at my
computer and write. My latest project is another sea story—I don’t know what
else I’d write—about a young officer making his first trip as ship’s master. I
took some writing classes a couple of years ago at a small college twenty miles
from Portland ,
where I now live, and recently have gotten a couple of stories into regional
magazines.
His
name is Walter—back then a scrawny, overly polite blond boy, tall for his age
and studious. He feared his Bible-thumping father and adored his vivacious
mother. The last time I saw him, I had held his hand tightly on the stern for
the burial-at-sea. He had looked up at me, eyes streaming tears, as his
mother’s body smacked the hard surface of the cold, gray water like a plank.
I open
the door for him.
“Walter
Bishop,” he says. His smile is still boyish.
“Zachary,”
I say, nodding. “Zachary Thomas.”
He
leans toward me, obviously pleased that I appear to recognize him and says,
“Yes, indeed. They called you Jake back then. Your nickname, I guess. I’ve been
looking for you. Did you get my letter? I saw a sea story in that magazine they
put on the ferries that run up into the San
Juan ’s and figured the author had to be you.
Interesting story, by the way. Nice twist at the end where the cadet saves the
old captain’s neck even after the guy has been such a brute. I had no idea
where you lived, so I sent the letter to that maritime union that represents
the deck officers.”
“The
Masters Mates and Pilots,” I say, again nodding. “That was a good guess. Sorry
I didn’t answer. I got married last year and have been busy moving in.”
“No
matter. You knew my parents, Alice and Ken, right? From the final voyage of the
James Wait.”
“I
did.”
He
reaches over to shake my hand. My index finger has a smear of blood. “Sorry,” I
say, holding up my hand. I wrap the finger in a tissue. “I was a lowly
midshipman back then, trying to learn the business.”
He has
an earnest quality, seems genuinely pleased to have located me, as though we
are old friends. He has his mother’s green eyes, and her habit of peering into
people’s faces. The memory is vivid and catches me. I am not prepared for
anything about this visitor.
“My
family joined your ship in Subic Bay ,” he
says. “We sailed back to San Francisco
with you.” He hesitates, then turns away. “My mother died on board. Was killed,
actually.”
I catch
my breath. “That was a difficult voyage. A difficult voyage during difficult
times.”
He
waits, hoping for more. When I say nothing, he says, “My sister and I want to
find out what really happened on that
ship. Something terrible—”
“You’ve
read the court proceedings?” I ask. “From the trial. Not sure what I—”
“Of
course.” He waves his large hand. “But that was inconclusive. We want more. We
want your insight, maybe some personal details. And we want you to write it
out. Like a . . . like a short novel. You’re a writer. You can do that. We will
pay you. We thought perhaps ten thousand?”
“I’m a
fiction writer,” I say, motioning for him to sit. “I write fiction. You’re
asking for something different.”
His
request has caught me off guard. While it makes perfect sense, I hadn’t
expected him to ask for a narrative accounting. An interview, perhaps, even
something taped, but a written account? No, this comes as a surprise.
The
enclosed porch is heated so I can write here while I observe my flowers even
when the temperature falls, along with the rain, later in the season. I have
aged into a fussy man, particular about my surroundings and my things. A
prelude by Bach plays on my expensive sound system. I reach over to turn it
off, irritated by this interruption to my morning routine. My life is so
contained now, serene even. The shelves I had built are filled with books I’d
read during my lonely hours at sea, along with a few of the artifacts—jade and
ivory carvings and knickknacks from my many voyages.
I stall
for time, unsure how to proceed. We sit on wicker chairs across a circular
glass table—pieces I’d purchased in Port Swettingham back in the seventies. I
pour the coffee from a copper samovar I’d picked up in the Grand Bazaar in
Sharjah, holding one hand with the other to keep it from trembling. We are
alone. Classes have started at the university and my lovely wife, Antoinette,
who teaches anthropology there, has already driven into town. We’ve been
married just over a year and receive little company.
“Your
roses are beautiful,” he says, indicating the tall vase sitting on the table.
I’ve
lost some ability to be social after a seagoing career. Anway, I am too caught
up by his request to respond to the compliment. “Why do you want to know this?”
I blurt out. “After all these years?”
He
carefully pours cream into his coffee and stirs. “Because my father died last
year. Pastor Kenneth died. After that terrible voyage on the James Wait, he never again spoke of my
mother to either my sister or me. He destroyed all photos of her except for one
that my sister got hold of. Whenever we’ve asked about Mother, even when we
were grown, he would shake his head, lift a hand in the air and walk away.”
His
face pleads with me. My mouth twitches. I’ve worked a lifetime to put this
behind me.
“Your
sister’s name is Margaret?”
“That’s
right. She would have been ten when you knew her. Grew up the image of our
mother.”
I pass
my hand over my eyes. The thought of seeing someone who looks like Alice after all this time
is almost more than I can imagine.
“We
want to know about Mother.” His voice takes on an insistent tone. “We have
memories, but not nearly enough. She was an only child, you see, and both her
parents are long since deceased.”
He
looks at his hands. They are large and square, with blotchy sunspots. They
remind me of his father’s hands. I don’t know why I remember them so clearly. I
avoided the man like he had leprosy.
“I’m a
psychologist. I know the value of uncovering the past. It can help people heal,
become whole.”
“I
d-don’t know what I could add,” I murmur. “Sometimes it’s best to let things
lie?” I end in a question, giving him a chance to respond.
“Margaret
and I have talked about this a thousand times. Why dredge up the past? Whatever
happened, happened. We can’t change a single thing.” He sighs. “Mother was
flawed, we know, but she was who she was. And more important, she was our
mother.”
He
closes his eyes, removes a pressed white handkerchief from his back pocket, and
slowly wipes his brow. “You see, we loved her. She was like a little bird
sometimes, the way she played and sang to us and told us stories about fairies
and castles and princesses. We want to know more about her. We want to know
what happened on that ship. We just want to know.”
His
face twists into an ugly mask, and I’m afraid he will start pounding on the
table.
I sink
into the floral-print cushion of my wicker-backed chair. “Have you thought to
ask Captain Steele? Far as I know, he’s still alive. I’ve never seen his name
on the obituary page of the union newspaper.”
“He is
alive, out on the East Coast somewhere. We spoke with his daughter. She said
he’s much too frail to either travel or be interviewed.” He draws a long
breath. “I know that something terrible happened on that ship.” His voice takes
an edge. “I want the truth.”
He
smiles weakly then, as if to say, “Is that asking so much?”
When I
don’t speak, his eyes narrow and he continues. “What sort of woman was our
mother? What were her relationships like? How do you remember her?”
“Why do
you think I could add anything to the trial report?” I ask softly, barely
trusting myself to speak. I have to set my cup down in order to keep from
spilling my coffee. “I was nineteen. Your mother was much older than me.”
He
shrugs, acting as if he doesn’t notice my discomfort. “Yes, but we recall that
you liked being around her, seemed to care about her. We—Margaret and I—want to
hear your version of the story. Besides,” he looks out the window, “there is no
one else to ask.”
I
remove the tissue from my finger. It starts to bleed again. I get a
paper-towel, fold it, and wrap my finger, trying to calm myself. “I have a
question for you,” I say, hoping to change the focus. “What did your father do
with his life after the trial?”
Walter
lifts his cup and saucer off the table, takes a sip. “We returned to the Philippines .
Pastor Kenneth married a local woman named Maria. He continued with his
missionary work. Everything he did was for the glory of God. Maria assisted him
and raised us. We have fond memories of her.”
“And
you and your sister? When did you return to the States?”
“We
both attended college here. My sister was married twice and I once. All
unsuccessful. She moved in with me after her second divorce. We live on Mercer Island outside of Seattle .” He lowers his
voice. “Margaret is a difficult woman who carries a lot of resentment. Pastor
Kenneth came to live with us when his wife died. Margaret gave him little joy
and not much peace, though perhaps more than he deserved. Then, last year, he
passed.”
I watch
him carefully, a habit from my captain days, when forming a judgment in a short
amount of time could be critical. I wonder what it is about his sister that he
calls difficult.
“I
think I understand,” I say. “My own father and I had a difficult relationship.
There is a bond between parents and children that doesn’t break just because
the child becomes an adult or because the parent does something that seems
unforgivable at the time. Let me think about it.”
The
look on his face is childish—a child who has not gotten what he wanted. He
seems to want to say something but holds back. He stands, reaches into his
shirt pocket and pulls out a card, which he hands me, then moves awkwardly
toward the door without attempting another handshake. I watch him walk up the
road. His shoulders slump, and he seems less confident than when he came. This
has not been easy for him. I feel the same. Just talking about Alice has taken a toll on us both.
My
finger is still bleeding. I apply pressure with a new napkin, annoyed with how
persistent it is, at how it distracts from the problem at hand. I must consider
this request carefully. It is a deep wound he is asking me to open, one that
has festered from the inside. Still, as he mentioned, uncovering the past can
be helpful. My life is remarkably improved now that I’ve quit the sea and am
living with a caring, intelligent woman and my beautiful roses. I’m learning to
cook and enjoy listening to good music. I feel more content than at any time in
recent memory.
On the
other hand, exposing this old lesion,
cleaning and sanitizing it might make my life better. Dealing with all
that guilt, if that’s what it is, might even help recover what is left of my
flagging manhood. I can’t predict how this will affect me, but I do know this
much: what is important has a way of seeking one out, usually when one least
expects it.
Besides,
I write every day, most recently about that period of my life—my days in Asia with the terrible war and everything upside down at
home. Walter is offering me an opportunity to explore that time more
completely, from a deeply personal point of view. He is obviously successful
and has offered to pay. I can use the money. My pension, twenty-two hundred a
month, barely covers my expenses.
About the Author
Though far from the open sea, Nebraska
produced a man whose love of adventure led him from the Central Plains to
become midshipman up to commander of the largest container ship in the American
merchant marine fleet.
Joseph Jablonski was born in 1948 and spent 30 of his 66 years
circumnavigating the world on an odyssey that would bring him to test the
limits of his courage and stamina.
At age 50, Jablonski relinquished his role as captain for that of writer.
This story, and Three Star Fix that
precedes it, reveal the heart of a man engaged with the world, undaunted by its
challenges, and at peace with his own nature.
His latest book is the literary fiction, Landfall.
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My Review:
This was an interesting book, because the past always comes back to haunt you. Especially when your past involves war. Life aboard a ship is very confined and it does not surprise me that people will do anything they want to succeed. The 2 different time lines made it interesting. To read how a person can change and make a new life for himself kept me interested. The author does a great job of making Jake a person to hate, while needing to know what he is going to do next. I am giving this book a 4/5. I was given a copy to review, however al opinions are my own.
Thanks for the wonderful review, Vicky!
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